What is chaos? The dictionary definition is:“complete disordered and confusion”(noun) from the Physics perspective: a behavior so unpredictable as to appear random, owing to great sensitivity to small changes in conditions. Both definitions colliding in my mind, my world! Have you ever tried to understand yourself, while swirling in such moments. The more you try the greater the confusion. Complete disorder of known conditions. What are you to expect in those moments? Other then, there must be a lesson. A clarification of a thought asked, yet not answered.
Everything you thought you knew about you, about your life, about your existence. Tossed in the wind, swirling like the leaves of fall. Scattering every where and landing no where. Everything you knew is questioned. What you thought you knew about your past is presented in a different perspective than remembered. Those times of great pain. Those times of dreams that slipped away, thought lost to the past. They were moments in time, that show you, your greatness is a possibility. Look closer!
The thought of not being able to achieve is turned into the simple word YES! The thoughts of not fitting in. There is greatness in standing alone. The dreams thought lost. are vast with possibilities. You know what you have to do to achieve the dream. Allowing it to be BIGGER, than your past. Those past moments of grandeur, are only a glimpse of the capabilities in the Now!
I must continue everyday to be a collector of small stones, little steps. Every stone, every step is building a pathway to a mountain peak, once thought to be lost in the horizon. To know that you are your creator, not the observer to your life. To keep leaning into those thought’s of joy, peace and happiness. It won’t be a challenge. It just is a part of my being. Yet, I will face challenges that will not make sense. That will leave me with my hands in the air, REALLY… not again.
I now know, they are passing moments to be experienced and let go! There is always a new choice to be made in every moment and guess what…it’s my choice in how I’am to be. NO ONE”S other than mine is to be made. To sit in that and truly feel those words. Gives you feelings that you really don’t know how to feel. It’s like putting on someone else’s coat, that you accidentally thought was yours. Only to find out. It is your coat, and it feels a little funny. But You know, in time, it will feel like you are wearing the correct coat.
The coat of appreciation, Love and respect. Your own worthiness is felt by YOU! Truly feel you're worth. YOU have a voice. It matters! It is needed NOW. Use it to inspire, to create, to build a better, caring, loving and peacefully person, community and world. The peacefulness in knowing chaos!
