Trying to figure out what to write and what picture I find inspiring! It’s a little bit of a challenge for me at the present moment…. That’s why, I am just going to start to write… There is something, that has been a little bit of a conundrum… With that being said, what is the issue we are uncomfortable to face? That list could be long, I have faced many shadows (if you will) but there is still something. It’s just not willing to come forward.
When it will come forward, and face the “light”, That means it is time to change. Time to grow and move closer to the chance in being the completeness that’s you!
The challenge is simple. It means time to move on and be that truth. I act as if I know, but I choose not to know? If that makes sense. Because then, the mask that has been there, is no longer needed and now is …“NOW”… is the time, to be free of old shit!
Stuff that has been beneficial, just don’t fit the forward frame anymore.
The mask’s have been there to protect and shield the truth from your own eyes as well as the pain and struggle you didn’t want to deal with. It was there to protect!!! We must stop the perfection and just be. Be what you know your self to be. Not, what you feel others need you to be for their light to shine and your’s to dim.
Some of the stuff I feel and sense is that I’m greater than I am at this time and going forward. I have dimmed my light to take the shine from myself and give to others. When all along it was me that wanted that. I just chose to look the other way and not acknowledge and grow, but be just the opposite. Diminish and disappear. If I let that light diminish, I wouldn’t have to deal with sticking out. I could blend in. Yeah blend into the wall and disappear. When along that was not the truth! It was my perception for my own disappointment reflecting outward. Like last night, all my thoughts were…I am bad… I don’t have friends, I have cast all my relationships to the side and here I am all alone, with nothing. Yeah…it could be, but it doesn’t have to be!
I could give life a chance and let it bloom, prosper as it is meant to be and not as I want it to be. Am I giving that seed the opportunity to grow? Or squash it with my own disbelief of self. I look back and say… I haven’t grown or changed in the year since I left Ralph. I really need to look back and see, know that my future is bright and abundant I have made huge steps in my own journey. If I could just stop walking in front and covering it up! To realize it is a journey and I am on a different path and shine in that. To trust… what I know is right!
What I feel is right now, it’s with love and joy. Life is just wanting and waiting to be expressed through me. It is all there, I just need to trust and see. Believe in me! How important is that!! I feel that belief more, when I am doing things “I” want to do. Creating what gives me the chance for self expression. Without judging it in perfection, but to judge in love of self and my journey to joy, love and abundance. On my terms, not those of others.
To just be me! Naked and all. I don’t know why that, phrase from Brenne Brown pops up randomly “Standing naked at the top of the stairs and for all to see.” Those moments of being guarded and guarding are there, but perceived differently! You feel the weight becoming lighter and freer. How do you express it?… Just Be It! I guess that’s the simplest answer. Just be as you know you are to be! Artist, photographer, writer and why not publisher and all around great person! I am going to be okay. Because I am OKAY! Stop the comparing, just be the being! Just allow it!!! You know what to do. Start it today! It truly is very simple we just make it so complicated. :)
